I grew up in a Christian home with Christian parents. We went to church every Sunday and were involved in serving at the church. When I was eight years old, I had been thinking about what I had been learning at church and VBS over the past few weeks. One day I was outside playing basketball and thinking and I remember the Lord pressing it on my heart that I was a sinner and that I needed forgiveness for my sins, that I was helpless and couldn’t save myself. I realized that the consequences of my sins were death and that the Lord alone could save me from death with the sacrifice of His son, Jesus, for my sins. I felt a sense of urgency and went inside and talked to my mom about it. After that, we went upstairs in my bedroom floor and prayed. The next week I went to church and walked down after the invitation and went through pre-baptism counseling. I professed my personal faith in Jesus Christ and was baptized on August 26, 2001.
After I became a Christian, the Lord continually grew me in what it meant to be a follower of Christ throughout middle school and high school. I was involved in church with youth group, FCA and serving in elementary ministry. At the beginning of college, I struggled with anxiety and several health problems. I had panic attacks constantly especially in the car on the interstate.
During that time period I began to fall into fear and question what I had known about Christ given that I was away from home and struggling. The first month of college the Lord placed a senior in my life named Taylor. Taylor explained to me that God could do so much in my life if I would just trust Him and that He was bigger than any fears that I had. She encouraged me to go on a fall retreat with Campus Outreach. At the time, I had been going to both Cru and Campus Outreach and wasn’t sure if I could financially do both. I also wasn’t too sure about going on the one with Campus Outreach because I knew no one going and it was a farther trip on the interstate. I signed up for both and somehow got extremely sick the weekend of the Cru fall retreat and ended up going on the Campus Outreach fall retreat. I was nervous to go with all of my anxiety about riding in the car on the interstate and just general anxieties with not knowing anyone and being on my first out of town trip as a college student. I had been praying for the Lord to give me peace to be able to go on this trip because since I was sick for the Cru fall retreat, I knew that He had a purpose. The whole car ride down the Lord comforted me and I did not have any fear.
That weekend the talks were about, “Who You Say I am?” talking about who Christ was in our lives and Will talked about how big God is and kept emphasizing the Gospel and how it related to Isaiah 40:12-14 which says, “Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens? Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance? Who can fathom the Spirit of the LORD, or instruct the LORD as his counselor? Whom did the LORD consult to enlighten him, and who taught him the right way? Who was it that taught him knowledge, or showed him the path of understanding?” That weekend the Lord pressed on my heart and made me realize His bigger plan for my life, the depths of sin that He had saved me from and that He was bigger than anything I would ever face in life because He created all things and rules over everything. He reminded me that I was helpless without His grace and that my good deeds were dirt compared to Jesus. Since then I have been involved in Campus Outreach and the local church growing, serving and leading women. The Lord is constantly growing me daily in what it means to follow him, trust Him with my anxiety and be sanctified.